11 days straight, meditating every morning! And still I panicked, today. (It happens). But I was devastated; and I had to explain to my love that I needed his help. I tried on my own, I did!
_I struggle with asking for help. I feel as if I shouldn't have to, or it makes me weak. Well...my EGO feels that way, 'I' don't.
_Mental illness carries such a stigma in this country. We have grown up thinking we need to hide it, and so no one understands why we act/react the ways that we do. "Buck up, Buttercup", "Get over it", "Smile, why don't you?", or my favorite: "What's wrong with you?" _Nothing is wrong with me. Evolution created me with the ability to see that this world is not as it should be. Everyone is hurting, but I am pledged to carry it on my sleeve.
For I am an initiate, of Chiron the Wounded Healer. I hurt, so I can teach you not to.
I need to not be ashamed of my anxiety, my depression, my 'mental illness'. _For my pain, my fear, my panic, they are our blessing.
And sometimes I need help, coming back from the ledge, in a moment. I need help, to know that you still love me, though I am wounded--Nay, BECAUSE I am wounded.
_I need help to know that my journey does something special for all of you; and to value myself for that.
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