Ok here it is...anyone who has known me for longer than 8.5 seconds knows I have always hated my nose and everything about it.
It’s exceptionally long, poinnty and witch like and I have nostrils for days!
I do NOT post side pics!
I do NOT post unrehearsed pics!
I do NOT allow friends or family to post pics that I do not pre-approve!
And I do NOT post pics that aren’t deceptive to the viewer and give the illusion that I am completely and 100% happy with my appearance in the hopes that if I don’t let people see my flaws than they’ll believe that I don’t have any.....pretty fukn ridiculous hey?
Truth is I preach self acceptance to anyone who will listen, I dedicate my entire life to making women and girls feel good about themselves without the validation of others whether it be friends, family or strangers on the Internet confirming your beauty and self worth one like at a time but all I ever wanted was that exact validation, I CRAVED it!
My entire life has literally been dictated by hatred of my nose!
I have been on a journey since losing the 2 people I loved most in the world, both to suicide.
I lost my best friend and then 2 years later I lost my baby’s daddy, Both we’re proud men, both loved and adored, both appeared confident to the world but both insecure, self destructive and desperate to be loved seemingly no matter the cost.
Since losing them I have been determined to find myself, my journey to self love and appreciation has been long, heavy and arduous.
It has taken me to dark places that I never wanted to go but I went in kicking and screaming and somehow after many tantrums, tears and eventually tribulations I came out calm and with a sense of self that I believed was beyond me. It has enlightened me.. So today I have decided not to use a filter.
Today I have allowed a photo that shows my nose in all its witchy glory.
Today I am practicing what I preach and baring all.
Today I am letting go of my 15 year old self’s insecurities and posting a photo that would have been deleted instantly every other single day.... Today I am baring my soul......and my never ending nostrils!