Earlier today i was in the shower washing my face when the scent of my face wash flashed me back to about 3 years ago. Suddenly i was in my cousins shower & My mind was instantly flooded with traumatic experiences that i faced during hypo manic episodes or just vulnerable moments in general. Watching myself drunk & out of my mind. Inebriated & preyed on. Reliving experiences that should have never taken place.. It’s been awhile since I’ve time traveled like that, coming out of it i had to take a moment to reflect, love on myself and forgive myself for ever blaming myself or allowing others to blame me for things out of my control. Reminding myself to be gentle with me & not to be so harsh. I know i may seem tough (or maybe i don’t) but I’m a very delicate being. Reminding myself to treat myself with care. And just loving on myself extra hard because i deserve it.