Hi. I am tired. I am writing a new screenplay. 42 lame pages in. I am tired. I need to make real money. But I keep writing and sending things out. Living really cheaply. I am determined to make a life from this skill. (& acting & directing but writing is the baseline) Too often I feel really defeated. Too often I defeat myself. I hate not having fall and I dream of moving to like the Hudson River Valley or something. I tell myself, get a foundation going and then live where there are seasons. The thing about pursuing a creative career isn't starting (though everyone talks about it - must be all people who haven't started?) It's keeping going when the money is gone and you don't know what to do. It means zeroing in even harder on what you want, focusing on output over time put in, it means studying the business even if it's overwhelming and feels too big. One thing at a time. I feel like all I share is how hard this is. But it's just accurate. I don't expect this to be forever. But it's a season of work over here and it's just not a pretty time.