"Pain reminds you the joy you felt was real"
I'm so sorry this took so long.
It's not only the fact that I'm preoccupied almost all the time, but more so the impact this film had on me.
How it's been clouding my mind since I first saw it, making me fuzzy.
I really thought a rewatch would help...
(Btw, two times in IMAX is the real deal.)
I'm still at a bit of loss for words, even if it didn't transfix me into an oblivion of speechlessness and euphoric catharsis the second time around.
It actually felt a lot more steady and gripping for me this time, even if I lost a sense of its cinematic consciousness in experience.
I can't fault it for that, and it really evens out with the former.
I feel like I can think straight again, but now I feel like something is missing.
Even if I can't sleep worth shit right now, it still doesn't feel like much is there, but it's been affecting me so much.
I have never had a film experience like this before.
I don't know if this feeling I'm getting is from the film or plot (which in itself was nothing special).
Don't get me wrong, the plot is very intriguing and ties into the first very effectively.
It creates a thrillingly immersive and touching ride, even in its slow moments, the moments that let every ounce of thematic importance sink in... with some of the best cinematography and sound/score in any film, period.
The sound made my heart skip a few beats... when it wasn't going through my body, and the score makes everything more feasible and alive... more asthetically authentic and euphoric.
Each frame brims with sheer genius and beauty, and if you look up how some of it is done, you'll be shocked.
To go on about how great it is technically is just a waste of time.
There are certain images and moments that gave me anxiety and hopes that I never imagined.
It's a breathtaking, albeit quiet monument.
The scenes with JOI, notably her feeling rain for the first time, the sync-sex scene, and the giant pink woman hologram (and the devastating facial reactions we get from Gosling) will be etched into my memory forever.
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