SISTERBABE... Oooooh I miss my sister SO much! This was taken on our family holiday last year in Bali. 👯
It was my first time on a plane in years & I remember being in so much pain that Natalie would automatically order me a shot of tequila wherever we went, just so I could make it through dinner. 😆
She's considerate like that. 😜
I just got off the phone to my family back home & it's moving day. My sister & two nephews are temporarily moving in with my parents.
Sadly, when I left Australia, I had to leave my awesome home that Nat, myself & the two boys shared. So this move has not only upended my life, but also my family's. Without me there, the rent at our townhouse cost too much money. ☹️
And I feel awful about that.
It was meant to be a 'Field of Dreams' kind of situation: "If you build it, they will come".
In other words: if I built the life I wanted, then my illness would just, you know... bugger off.
Yep, pretty dumb, right?
Well, that was my thinking a year ago when we signed the lease. I was 8 weeks off of turning 35, single, unemployed, injured & very unwell... and was living with my parents. What a catch, hey boys? 🤦♀️
So, naturally, I figured that if I moved out... all of the other elements of my life would change too.
Yeah... it doesn't really work that way, but AT THE TIME it seemed like sound logic to me!
I continued to become more & more unwell.
The next thing I knew 6 months had passed & I had spent it virtually bed bound.
I decided to move to California to regain my life from chronic pain (with the help of medicinal cannabis) & here we are.
I feel awful that my nephews & my sister have to move out of our home, but sometimes you have to be selfish in order to get back to being your best-self for your family.
I was no use to ANYONE the way I was. My hope is that when Australia's medicinal cannabis laws catch up, I can finally go home & will be able to work again... then Nat & I can make another home somewhere else.
After all, home is where the heart is, right? ❤️
Love you sis. 😘👯
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