I am in a position of freedom privilege every day, as many are, and I feel filthy and disgusted indulging.
I like the idea of hell.
Anything to stay away for eternity from Christians and people who pretend to be good as though they and only they are deserving of heaven.
Not so much afraid of losing life, very much afraid of the concept of living for nothing except deceptive collective filth of individual indulgence.
Has nothing to do with being brave or trying to stand out, it has everything to do with #surrender, because the more I want, in this position of #freedom #privilege, the more I find the #less I have, the more #satisfied I become.
The burden is the battle between #guilt and #gratitude, and I have to be thankful to get what I got, and to give all I have to avoid the #filth of #indulgence.
So when this position is no longer available, nothing would have been taken for granted, and if there is a choice between #heaven, I'd choose #hell.
Anything to burn away for eternity from pathetic beggars pleading to be let into heaven, having forgotten they were let into heaven all along but because they were blinded by their self concern, have turn earthly existence, which is paradise itself, into hellish existence blaming the devil.
Even the #devil deserves some pity for all the #blame on #earth.