#tbt to me at 6 months old making the same face I made today when my new #iphone decided the touchscreen wanted to stop working forcing me back to busted, yet amazing #samsung5 and this picture popped up when it turned on it the first pictures of me after surviving #spinalmenigitis and being released from the #nicu #spinaltap after crashing there for over 45 days. They fed me very well. #chubbybaby These were my first #professional pictures cause my parents were excited I guess they didn't expect me to live once I was admitted or if I did I would be completely #deaf and/or mentally disabled but I fought on and still unknown by some miracle I have half my hearing and am sorta #sane #joke however my outfit came straight from #handsmaidtales #80s and I still often sport a #confused look #babypictures then in 4 years I'd be re hospitalized for severe #asthma and again at age 11 for #t1d and now I work at the same #hospital that saved my life 3x weird how life works out #blessed #lifeordeath #riseordietrying #yolo like I once wrote "You stop fearing death when you've died. Its like been there, done that, next. Death was darkness, death was sleep. It was being brought back to life and the actual physical process of dying that sucks, being dead though that was a piece of cake. I think I actually got bored with how easy it is so I keep coming back.."