Being hurt by someone you love is the hardest thing to go through..
I've been both physically and emotionally abused.. It's not easy to share, but I do it in bits and pieces..
Who wants to air out that dirty? It's scary.. You worry.. I can't tell you how hard hubby fought for me - many times I had told him back because I was ashamed.
I was raised in a broken home..
I dreamed of more, wished this wasn't my life.. One day I decided enough already - I need to live for me and my babies.. Even then, I have had hateful words thrown at me- I had to grow and tell myself, it's not me they are mad at, they are mad at the reflection of themselves.. I STILL have alot to recover from emotionally. I had to let go of those that I cared about most, so I can break free of the vicious cycle of being torn and sewn up again.. It's not easy.. I still mull over things, but I use it to grow and get stronger.. I'm fueling myself now with healthier mindset of good books, nutritious food, the gift of movement, and a community that has brought life back into me.. Some days I still struggle to get out of bed, but I force myself up on those hard days.. Then at the end of they day, I say THANK YOU for getting up!! I'm worth it - they are worth it - and SO ARE YOU.. Seek support now - start where you are - don't let your past define you - YOU ARE more than the number - KNOW THIS!! Rooting for you!! #transformationtuesdays #depressionwarrior #selflovewarrior