Let's chat! You know how people always say that you GET to run, that it's not something you HAVE to do? For years even though I wanted to run, it still felt like a box I had to check off each day. I wanted to believe that running was a gift and a privilege but it didn't exactly feel that way. On runs I'd go through my list of what I needed to do that day and I'd stress about whatever was bothering me, I'd beat myself up over paces or mileage or how much my thighs were rubbing cause you know if only I ate less I'd be lighter and my thighs wouldn't rub and if my thighs weren't rubbing than maybe all that other crap I was thinking about wouldn't be bothering me as much and really when the heck is this run going to be over anyways because I'm hot and tired and just want to sit on the couch.
It took a fundamental mind shift to REALLY AND TRULY BELIEVE that I GET to RUN. To stop focusing on what was going wrong, what didn't feel good or what I could be doing with my time instead of running. Once that mind shift happened I stopped running through my to-do list, I was present in every run. Running wasn't something I had to check off the list for the day, it was the day. It wasn't a means to an end, it was the end. This morning I ran 14 miles - they were just OK - it was humid, I was hot, I ran out of water - I could have fallen back in to that HAVE TO mentality - It could have been a *checking the box* run. It wasn't. I practice being thankful, grateful and remind myself daily that running is a CHOICE. I don't have to do it, I GET to do it.
I've never regretted a run ever. I've accidentally peed on myself on runs - I've had to call the cops on runs - I've thrown up on runs and fallen on others - I've almost pooped my shorts on runs and I've chaffed so bad on runs I've screamed in the shower - I've broken down on runs and sat and cried for what felt like an eternity, not knowing where the sweat ended and the tears began. BUT I've still never regretted any of those runs.....Each and every run molds me, shapes me, shows me who I am and what I'm made of. Every run is not pretty but every run is worth it....and LOOK where I GET to RUN. #irunthisbody #ihavearunnersbody