LONG POST WARNING:
•I'm the oldest of 4 kids, I also have a 30 year old half brother I didn't know until I was 18. I acquired 2 more step sisters when I was 19. (Technically I was 28 when they legally became my sisters.) •Recently graduated with my B.S. from ASU's College of Health Solutions in Speech & Hearing Science in Aug of 2016 at an "older age" of 26. •I changed my major 4 times.
•I have worked in my field & wasn't fulfilled by it.
•I have worked in the restaurant industry bartending for 9 years.
•Currently I have been helping my boyfriend with his business for 1 year.
•I've paid off 3 cars.
•Lived on my own for almost 10 years. •I've had to "start over" in relationships & friendships several times.
•I've lived in 5 major cities to date. •I have ran 3 full marathons, 7 half marathons & a full Tough Mudder.
•I've competed in 2 NPC shows (training for my next show in 9 weeks.)
• So why do I feel like I have accomplished so little? •Is it because my path has been so winding? •I feel so much pressure to be the best bc I have so many looking up to me, yet I feel that I'm "younger" than half of my younger siblings.
All bc I don't have a career laid out for me, I'm not married, I don't have babies yet, I don't own a house, I haven't been anywhere tropical (or even out of the country besides Mexico.)
•But you know what... I have failed over & over & over again yet my family still loves me. They still look up to me & somehow still think I'm a cool person. They still think I'm strong. I am so blessed for that.
•Now if only I could stop telling myself I'm not good enough, maybe I would be able to find my dream job, get that house I want & be a success on my own terms. •Until then, I will keep trying & failing until I get it right. •I'm not sure where I'm headed but I promise, it won't be boring!😉