Hey guys. I'm back. I've been absent from here for a while, but you're probably going to be seeing a lot more from me. I have been going through a lot. At the beginning of February I feel like I had officially started to "recover". I was eating normally, I wasn't obsessing about food, and I was enjoying life. Then, I went through a period of immense stress. My cat died, I was having car issues and my boyfriend and I moved into a new apartment. Not to mention that I had moved across the country in January and was feeling terribly homesick. I began going through periods of eating a lot or barely eating at all. I was unhappy for the longest time, and I only JUST started to come out of it. During this period of time I gained a couple lbs (I am now 145), which has been wreaking havoc on my mind. I know a lot of it is water weight because of the fluctuation in the amount of food I eat, but I feel fat. I hate to say it but I am going to start restricting again. Not a lot, just to get me back to where I was. I was happier with my body then. Right now I just barely have a thigh gap and it's not as prominent as it used to be. My ribs are still showing but just barely. I constantly feel terrible about my appearance and I just want to be thin and beautiful again. So I am going to start posting food again... I need to be held accountable for what I am eating. I just want to be thin again.
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