Yesterday was absolutely one of the worst days in a long time; doubly so because it was Angel's birthday and no matter how hard I tried to make it a good day - His headspace just wasn't good. But I'm only mildly disassociated today and just really trying my best to make it a positive day. Going to let Angel sleep as long as possible because if he is awake, he's upset. I can only hold his hand, let him know I'm not going anywhere without him, and keep trying to make him laugh with my stupid jokes and puns. Please keep him in your thoughts and mediations; he's not doing well at all. "One foot in front of the other foot in front of the one foot in front of the other foot"