It's been such a good body image period for me, I realized as I have been out and about dressed in reg. clothes more often lately.
It dawned on me tonight that I rarely think about my body. It's size. It's shape. It's body fat.
I did put on these skinny jeans and they were fairly loose. I used to read others say how they "let go" of counting and calculating and/or over exercising and they'd lose weight and I'd legit roll my eyes and think "yah right. When I do that, I gain 15 lbs in 6 months and then it NEVER, ever goes away." But here I am friends. First time in 8 years doing No cardio except a brisk (my 8 year old walks right next to me) walk 2 or 3 times a week. No more than 4 strength sessions for 45 minutes each. And a yoga class. I haven't tracked a bite of food since November 1st (I know to some, that's no big deal but to me who always to some extent has, it's legit progress). I'm down about 10 lbs of that 15 I gained in 6 months of 2015--that hasn't budged since. And while the weight loss is exciting, finally, what's most exciting is the freedom to live like I am right now --that I haven't been able to allow myself in years.
Don't get me wrong all those years weren't scary and awful and addiction ridden. I don't mean that. Because I love the workouts. I love the knowledge and experience I've gained.
I just love the girl I've become, going through it all, to be honest. I respect her ability to let go of some control. I respect her ability to not only, NOT say mean things about herself, but actually say nice things in everyday self talk--because I mean them. I respect her desire to work hard and be an example of health and fitness to others but more than that i respect her desire to help others find freedom, joy, and love for their journey and themselves.
When you realize, you are worth it. That you are powerful. That you have everything you need to be satisfied and to excel in your life. That you have opportunities to light the world up with love and compassion and fire for the good things... Well, you become Unstoppable. Grateful. Powerful. Limitless in what you can do and what you can share.