You know that feeling when you crave something so you eat it? Well for those in recovery from an Eating Disorder moments like that are profound.
To most of you I’m pretty much known as the girl who brings her own food everywhere she goes. And to be honest the way I have lived my life has confused a lot of you. “Why can’t she just eat what we’re having?” “Why does she have to be on a schedule?” “Why is she not eating at a restaurant?” And the questions and statements go on. But what majority of you all don’t know is these patterns I have had led me ultimately to a place of freedom.
Eating disorders are a disease where rigidity, and structure become the foundation for initial recovery. In majority of treatment centers, including the one I spent most of my life in, structure was the building blocks for the out of control behaviors and mindset those who are struggling develop. Food, meal times, activity times, etc are all planned accordingly giving some sort of security when recovery seems most unknown. Treatment days look the same almost everyday, and it is emphasized that to continue recovery long term, maintaining a schedule or structure in your life is best. To the outside world this seems crazy, to eating disorder patients this is where life starts to actually begin. Recovery of course starts inside a clinic, or therapy, but the real challenges of treatment are in the world.
What most people don’t understand is for a period of time counting calories, eating scheduled meals and planning for days ahead is not because the eating disorder still has control, it’s us having control over our new recovery driven life. Studies show time passes, and the success rate in recovery for those who maintained structure is greater than those who didn’t.
So for the answer to so many peoples questions over the years of “Why can’t someone in recovery from an eating disorder be just like you?” It’s simple. We can be, it just takes time, it takes understanding, and most of all it takes the realization it’s okay that we are not just like you! 😊. #eatingdisorderrecovery #thisjourney #edawareness #recoverybound #thisismylife #healthylifestyle