My mom was given a nose job as a teenager “because she looked too Jewish”. she said her bump was a similar size to mine when she had the surgery.
my older sister wanted a nose job through much of her teens, & talked about it into her early 20s.
My grandmothers valued appearance over felt experience. All of these women shamed & criticized my belly, body hair, & acne when I was riding the roller coaster of puberty. This was painful 🌸 I forgive them for their projections, for sharing their pain. 🌸
As a teen I protected myself with fierce intellectual political anger, & with the rational evidence of art history that proved our modern consumer culture was a blip on the screen in a vast tradition of exalting my form.
It took me about a decade to soften this defensive reactionary attitude & integrate my beliefs into a sensual graceful feeling of receptivity.
I still have battles & struggles with insecurity occasionally, but I am proud to say
I love me
I am embodied 🌸
the wounds of assimilation & internalized oppression can be brutal & physical or subtle & internal.
I am healing so many generations of body hatred.
in Jewish tradition the family shovels dirt onto casket at the open grave to conclude funeral ceremonies. i said prayers to bury body shame & self hatred when I shoveled dirt into both of my grandmothers graves in the last year. 🌸
I am committed to honoring my body & healing my lineage through self love & acceptance.
What are the harmful beliefs about your body that you inherited from the women in your family?
What have you done to transform your beliefs & overcome the internalized oppression of body hatred?
Yoniversal Health Care Day is next weekend. There are a few sessions open still! If youd like my individualized support on your journey to self acceptance & embodiment, follow the link in my bio & sign up for a one on one session. Sliding scale fee + no one turned away for lack of funds. 🌸
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