Top left: unknown. Top right: Panic! At The Disco "Nearly Witches (Ever Since We Met)" The other songs are P!ATD too.
Just FYI, when someone says c/a.m.g.ir/ls (broke up the word for a reason*) are forced, s.e//x w/o.rker.s (again, broke up the word for a reason*) are abused, etc. Do. Not. Question. Them. I've been struggling like hell tonight with self-blame and self-loathing and crap. "Kaleidoscope Eyes" is how I /wish/ someone thought of me.
"When your chips are down, and your drinks are all gone
I'll still be here, wishing and waiting for you to come home
Kaleidoscope eyes, sparkle at the world
My emerald city, downtown girl
In the sickness of you, I'm just a white blood cell
Fighting like hell for you"
...but hey, here's to a future of night terrors, waking nightmares, and looking normal all the while..
for the words I separated above.
*I was forced to be a c.girl for a few months when I was with my ex-fiancé. Not the person I was just dating! This happened back in like.. 2011? 2012? Idk, something like that. I left the bastard in 2013 so whatever. It still Fks me up though. A lot. SOME OF THEM WERE UNDER 18 & I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING because I was in the same position as them! Even though I was an adult though.. It's amazing how much self worth can be tied up in something people often seem to completely detach from their personalities. I'm done for, even if I wasn't already, because of it. Pretty sure it's a good deal of what screwed up my last relationship. I cannot separate sex work (ugh I really don't want ppl searching those words to find this) from a relationship that's gone... there. I'm totally good with not having a sexual relationship? 99.999999% of the world? Not so much. That 0.00001%? Most of them haven't learned/accepted that it's okay to not be like the others (or feel like we'll die alone if we do accept it). Okay, done publicly self-hating for now. Just #StopTrafficking #RealMenDontRape and for gods sakes Educate Yourselves!? Please?! These are daily crimes. But.. if you can learn to spot trafficking victims - drug, sex, work, any way a human can be /used/ please take notice?