Don't judge a book by its cover... nor a PT by her plate.... This week I have posted photos of chocolate and cakes and was shocked to receive DMs from people saying it was double standards for a PT to be promoting eating cake and that I shouldn't be glorifying an unhealthy lifestyle. I was shocked and upset - and let me tell you a story that explains why.
I have always had a disordered relationship with food. I was an anorexic teenager, and I went on to binge regularly. I gained a lot of weight when I first moved to London due to excessive drinking and partying which I did to cover up my crippling self doubt and dysmorphia. I went through a nasty break up after being in an emotionally abusive relationship, and as always, when I hit rock bottom I turned to food to control my emotions. It was 2 months before Christmas and I wanted to "wow" at my work Xmas Party, so I started working out 3 times a day and went on a stupidly restrictive diet. I cut out dairy, gluten and sugar and obsessively counted calories. I was so proud that I got through December without a single mince pie or chocolate. I promised myself I'd enjoy Christmas Day with my family, and then get straight back to my "diet" on Boxing Day. Except that didn't happen, because as soon as I had a slice of Christmas Pudding and a few chocolates I became like an animal possessed. Because I had denied my body food that I enjoyed for so long and restricted myself, as soon as I ate normally again I lost all self control. On Boxing Day morning after breakfast I ate an entire box of Cadburys Heroes.
Since then I have never denied myself food. I got down to a skeletal size 6 through making myself miserable and anti-social. It wasn't healthy.
Now I am all about balance. If you want the chocolate, eat it. Enjoy it. Just not every day. If you want to lose weight eat less calories than you burn - but you don't need to starve yourself or cut anything out. Don't label food as bad or good. Food is fuel.
And finally don't judge someone on their Insta feed when you have no idea of the heartache and struggle it may have taken them to get where they are today.
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