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Guess what: What you ate yesterday shouldn't affect what you eat today 馃檯馃徑 You deserve to eat whatever you want no matter how much or what you ate last night or what you're going to eat later tonight 馃憡馃徏馃槝 also salt bagels are bae 馃憛馃憛馃憛

Gearing up to go on a date and feeling a surge of good, "I can't believe I got here" vibes. I'll probably repost/recaption this but suffice it to say that both this outfit and this life look a lot better with a healthy body. Grateful. #edfree #edfamily #edrecovery #edsurvivor #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #recover #realcovery #recoveryispossible #realrecovery #prorecovery #positiverecovery #edfighter #beatana #beatanorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #foodisfuel #healthynotskinny #anorexianervosa #minniemaud #homeodynamictreatment

I got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine.馃尀 Er is zoveel meer in het leven dan zelfhaat. Ik begin dat langzaam door te krijgen.

馃挄The Body Positive Community is hard for a lot of people to understand. I was trying to explain it to a friend the other day and I said "I post pictures of my cellulite and soft stomach" and she said "you don't have either of those!" like if I did it would be a bad thing. I thought, "but I do and it's okay".

Your body is okay. It's okay if your body doesn't look like the picture of the model who was wearing the swimsuit on that website you bought it from the other day, or whoever else you're comparing yourself to. But it's valid for you to feel inadequate. It's valid for you to feel frustrated and not worthy. But just know that you are in fact, fucking perfect because you are yourself and no one else.

鉂わ笍
#cellulitesaturday
#BEinyourskin
#iloveyou

This is my happy body馃挋 A bod pod test once told me it was too fat. A date once told me it was too round. I once told me far worse lies about it, but this is my happy body. This is the body that recovery brought me. This is the body I celebrate and love (even when I don't like it much). Making peace with my back squish and belly has been the most difficult and most rewarding lesson to come out of my eating disorder. This community of all you has been the biggest blessing. Stronger and happier each day馃挋

So... time is up for another CHALLENGE 鈿★笍鈿★笍鈽勶笍 I have been in such a misery every summer for the past few years, hospitals, tub-feeding, baggy clothes, wheelchairs, aka slave for anorexia. As you may have noticed summer is coming up. I've been terrified of showing my body but what should I be ashammed of? This is MY body, it is damn BEAUTIFUL and STRONG 鉂o笍This summer I will wear what I want. Starting today, first time wearing a skirt in years. And you know what everyone won't look at me and think I am fat like the thoughts say, people will look at me and you and think that we are BEAUTIFUL for making it this far 鉂o笍鉂o笍 I am so happy that my interest in fashion can start to show again. 馃憼馃憸I won't ever consider clothes forbidden, cuz I am more then allowed to wear whatever I want whenever I want. 馃憲馃憱馃憴馃憳Goodbye baggy jeans and big shirts. 馃憢馃憢

I get a lot of DMs, questions and comments regarding gaining weight. What to eat? How much to eat? When to eat? Can I exercise? Here's my advice, based on what I have been told, my own research and my own experiences. 馃専To start the weight gain process, you need to increase your intake by 200-300 calories every 2-3 days (has to be gradual to avoid refeeding syndrome) until you reach 2000 calories per day. Then you bump up your calories to 3000+ per day (no less, your body really does need this amount to repair the damage the eating disorder caused). You are ALWAYS allowed to eat more if you're hungry or just want more (shall I do a post on extreme hunger for you guys??). 馃専I would strongly advise no exercise during recovery (particularly during the weight gain process) as your body literally needs all of those calories that you are feeding it with. Exercising decreases the amount of energy your body has available to carry out the repairs, even if you eat more afterwards your body is in a fragile state and exercising can cause more damage-your body needs all the energy it can get at this stage. 馃専As for when to eat, timings make literally no difference to the weight gain- you will gain no quicker from eating lunch at 2pm in comparison to eating lunch at 12pm. Try to stick to set timings initially to get your body used to eating regularly again (3 meals, 3 snacks minimum per day) and then when you are mentally stronger try varying the timings to prove to yourself that it literally makes no difference.
馃専What to eat? What YOU want to eat. Don't just eat fruit and veg, start to challenge yourself. Fear food challenges are scary but necessary for progress- do you really want to be stuck eating just celery for the rest of your life? Didn't think so. Ignore macros, this is all so irrelevant but PARTICULARLY in recovery. There's no such thing as too much food in recovery. Eat for your body, mind and soul.
Hope this was able to help you guys. Comment any questions you have below and I will answer them as best as I can 馃槣馃斀

Ein vorletztes Mal Kartoffelbr枚tchen - definitiv eine Sache die ich vermissen werde. Dazu die wundervollen Parks, die lieben Mamis die ich hier kennen gelernt habe, meine 1A Kolleginnen und die Vleischerei.
Daf眉r freue ich mich riesig darauf, meine Familie wieder um die Ecke zu haben, meine Freunde in der N盲he, vegane Kreppel, rheinische Frohnaturen statt m眉rrischem Grundton, keine Einbr眉che, besseres Wetter, wieder zentral zu wohnen, g眉nstigere Croissants, mehr Spielpl盲tze, eine gr枚脽ere Wohnung und das Gef眉hl zu haben, zuhause zu sein. 馃槂Trotzdem, liebes Leipzig, bist meiner Meinung nach die sch枚nste Stadt in Deutschland 鉂わ笍nur nicht zum dort leben, zumindest nicht f眉r mich.

Best fuckin' way to satisfy every craving that ever existed 馃槶馃槏馃憣馃徏 (plus this was so ed-smashing as for some reason mixing up 'sweet and savoury' is something I'm uncomfortable with? Like what even馃槀)
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TOASTED BUN WITH AVOCADO SMASH AND YEAST EXTRACT n a touch of lemon and salt (fuck me up it was incredible) along with fruit n drizzly PB and a NEW FOUND FAVOURITE ALONGSIDE that's not pictured - this new REICHI LATTE thingy I bought that LITERALLY TASTES LIKE HORLICKS LIKE WHATISTHISEVEN (it's made with like coconut milk powder n stuff like Y E S) and ahhhh it was so so good I'm really full RN but that's all good because more food = more brain power 馃槇馃憣馃徏
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Literally this weekend I've learnt that changing up things and doing certain things in a different order can have a massive impact on my mental health 馃憡馃徎 (in a good way!!) and also that I am being more efficient with my study due to my changing of routines as well, so happy Jessie 馃憦馃徑馃挓
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Today I'm taking a day to relax and unwind and take care of myself, yes anorexia is pissing my brain about telling me I have 'been lazy' but like fuck off anorexia I'm only going to exercise if I jolly well want to, and right now I'm feeling chill so fuck youuuu 馃槉馃枙馃徏 No point in putting your body through something it doesn't want to go through! Now look after yourself like you deserve 鉂わ笍
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Have a lovely, relaxing Sunday folks. You deserve it, go out and show who's boss of this bitch today 馃挭馃徏馃尀馃敟 xxx #bethebiggerbully

MOST RECENT

SUPER CHALLANGING #dinner was home made chicken pizza with onion, tomatoe, salad and garlic sauce on top!馃専
馃専Pizza is a huge #fearfood for me, but I feel like home made is easier than bought (havent had bought for like ages), in the begining It was harder but then my mum told me to show my ed whos in charge (me), so I managed to eat everything馃専
馃専Feeling extremely exahusted, anxious and disgusting, my tummy hurts and I just feel super sad, but food is food right? This is not dangerous!!! And next time it might be easier!馃専

馃寠馃悮Self Love Bootcamp w/my 鉂わ笍 @omgkenzieee
DAY 22: Become A Mermaid 路
Appropriate for today: me on the beach, mermaid-thigh game = STRONG.

I've never had a thigh gap, even at my lowest weight. However, I did everything and anything, regardless of how it affected my health, physically or mentally, to try and achieve one. But now, in recovery I have learned and accepted that my legs were made with a little more juicy love. Anatomically I will never have a space between my thighs and THAT'S OKAY!

I have let go of wanting that space. It is not an issue for me anymore. TBH, I don't always love my thighs as they are, but I know that they are always in love because they can't stop rubbing each other 馃槀馃檵馃徎 (thank you @theashleygraham) but seriously, there is nothing wrong with my thighs & there is nothing wrong with yours either!

Whether you naturally have the gap, or you naturally don't, you are:
鉁旓笍Looking 馃敟 cause your bod is perfect for a bikini right now (yes RIGHT NOW).
鉁旓笍Dope AF.
鉁旓笍A babe.
鉁旓笍Stronger than you think you are.
鉁旓笍A fierce warrior queen.
鉁旓笍BEAUTIFUL, WHATEVER THAT MEANS TO YOU.
鉁旓笍Deserving of love, respect & support.
鉁旓笍Smart.
鉁旓笍Important.
鉁旓笍Worthy.
鉁旓笍Slaying
鉁旓笍FLAWLESS (YES, FLAWLESS RIGHT NOW).

So look at me on the beach, thighs touching, celly on fleek, and feeling as confident as possible in the moment. And that's my best for the day.

Just do your best in the moment. If you're just trying to get out of bed without panicking about your body, do your best. If you're going shopping for clothes and you are nervous about what size you will be, do your best. If you are having a hard time eating your meals today, do your best. But remember, that doing your best means YOU HAVE TO TRY. You have to put in the effort no matter how small or how great that may be.

EVEN THE SMALLEST STEP FORWARD IS GREATER THAN NO STEP AT ALL.

If you do not try, did you really do your best?

You've got this. All of you are capable. I promise you.

I have recently been face with a great challenge that I feel I cannot accomplish for many reasons, but I am trying. So just try and that's all anyone can ask of you.

馃拫XO
#SelfLoveBootcamp
#mermaid
#beachbody

I 鉂 coffee. And I 鉂 these TREK chunks (think this is my fave flavour). What I don't 鉂 is that this is my last packet of these and my asda is a let down that never gets new products. Thanks rural life.

We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. - Icon for Hire 鉂も潳鉂も潳

I get a lot of DMs, questions and comments regarding gaining weight. What to eat? How much to eat? When to eat? Can I exercise? Here's my advice, based on what I have been told, my own research and my own experiences. 馃専To start the weight gain process, you need to increase your intake by 200-300 calories every 2-3 days (has to be gradual to avoid refeeding syndrome) until you reach 2000 calories per day. Then you bump up your calories to 3000+ per day (no less, your body really does need this amount to repair the damage the eating disorder caused). You are ALWAYS allowed to eat more if you're hungry or just want more (shall I do a post on extreme hunger for you guys??). 馃専I would strongly advise no exercise during recovery (particularly during the weight gain process) as your body literally needs all of those calories that you are feeding it with. Exercising decreases the amount of energy your body has available to carry out the repairs, even if you eat more afterwards your body is in a fragile state and exercising can cause more damage-your body needs all the energy it can get at this stage. 馃専As for when to eat, timings make literally no difference to the weight gain- you will gain no quicker from eating lunch at 2pm in comparison to eating lunch at 12pm. Try to stick to set timings initially to get your body used to eating regularly again (3 meals, 3 snacks minimum per day) and then when you are mentally stronger try varying the timings to prove to yourself that it literally makes no difference.
馃専What to eat? What YOU want to eat. Don't just eat fruit and veg, start to challenge yourself. Fear food challenges are scary but necessary for progress- do you really want to be stuck eating just celery for the rest of your life? Didn't think so. Ignore macros, this is all so irrelevant but PARTICULARLY in recovery. There's no such thing as too much food in recovery. Eat for your body, mind and soul.
Hope this was able to help you guys. Comment any questions you have below and I will answer them as best as I can 馃槣馃斀

Breakfast
Vegan sprout bagel with avocado spread for those healthy fats that will break down later to give me energy 馃挭馃徑 and my green tea latte because Im feelin green today. Keep fighting warriors 馃挏馃嵈

Went to the gym this morning, had classes and now going back to the gym to finish my workout lol #gymmotivation #fitnessmotivation #sweatlove

People often say to me, "Caitlin, why do you wear crop tops all the time?" "Are you trying to impress someone?" "It's not even crop top weather", "wear something else". The answer is no, I'm not trying to impress anyone, I am wearing them because I feel comfortable enough to do so. I don't care if it is raining I will still wear one and, no, I will not wear anything else 鈽猴笍馃枙馃徏I have fought for four long years to try and find the confidence and self love to be comfortable in what I wear. Don't tell me what I should and shouldn't be wearing when I am finally happy in my own skin. If I want to rock a crop top- I will do so. I'm not trying to "show off my body" I'm just embracing my body and I am happy doing that. Moral of the story: don't listen to what others say (they're usually ignorant comments anyway). Wear what YOU want to wear and enjoy it 馃檶馃徏
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#anawho #prorecovery #positivity #eatittobeatit #recovery #anorexia #ed #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #boobsnotbones #fuckyouana #fuckana #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #ana #beatana #nourishnotpunish #realrecovery #realcovery #healthynothungry #nourishtoflourish #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #selflove #selfacceptance #bodypositive

Did you know that diets can induce almost ALL of the most common eating disorder symptoms??? #fuckdiets #intuitiveeating NEW blog post on my website www.followtheintuition.com 馃挏

I'm having some serious doubts about this and I'm most likely going to delete this all.
So, negativity alert, and do not read if easily triggered 馃毃
//TW

I purged.
This day has been close to shit, and the camel's back just broke.
I went to pick up the coffee table, and I remembered it was half past 4. Well, I waited in pouring rain, started to get little bit pissed, and finally my call got thru and I spoke to the guy I was supposed to meet.
Well, I was so stupid, so fucking idiot that I went there hour too late! I can't believe what an stupid idiot I am!!! 馃檲

Then the voice started screaming.
It's your fault, now they hate you!
Everyone hates you because you're such a horrible person!
You have to punish yourself. Don't just walk away, punish yourself.
Haven't you seen how fat you've become, how disgusting? You look so fat in those jeans, and now they are wet and tight. Fat fat fat!!! Fat!!! Go home, purgestarvecutdestroy.
You. Fucking. Piece. Of. Disgusting. Fat. Bitch!
And do not dare to eat today.
DO NOT DARE! 馃挘

The worst thing is that I know exactly what I should have done in order to not let this happen. But I didn't do it, I didn't even want to. I'm so sick of always having to be strong, having to stay strong. I'm just a human being and I get tired.
And I'm also an idiot 馃敨

And I'm sorry.

It's nice when your 9 month old cousin can help with homework 馃槀馃槀

What do you see when you look at this girl?
You see her smiling.
You think she is happy.
You think she has a perfect life.
But what you don't see,
are her fears to never be good enough,
are her dreams of travels, happieness, freedom,
are her hopes to break trough the walls she built by herself.
You don't see that see cries herself to sleep at night.
You don't see her fear of the future.
You don't see the voices battling inside her head.
You don't see how hard she fights everyday.
You don't see the progess she makes.
You see her appearance but you don't see her soul, her character.
You don't look at this girl as a whole thing. You just watch one side of the medal.
Don't judge anyone because of the way they look.
The person you see isn't the same one that really hides herself behind this body.
Look at someone with your heart, not with your eyes because the important things can only be seen with the heart鉂

Lunch is a standard RF red pepper and chilli houmous, carrot, and tomato sandwich on SEEDED wholemeal bread. I couldn't decide if I wanted it toasted or not so I just did it half and half... #indecisive 馃崊馃馃崬馃槀
Aaaaand because I really want a massive gain this week I decided to increase lunch and have something as well as my sandwich. I decided to tackle my 'can't mix sweet and savoury' thing and have some baked pineapple because they're going out of date and need eaten. 馃挭馃崓

#afternoonsnack is some watermelon and some raisins馃専
馃専I will eat this outside in the sun馃尀馃専
馃専First I was just going to take the watermelon bc thats what ana wanted, but then I realised its not enough? So thats why I added some raisins馃専

Fruits for breakfast! 馃崜馃崐 I freaking love my new meal plan. Having fruits for breakfast is so much easier and make me feel good an happy! I love eating fruits and I change everyday so never get bored and it's so colorful 馃槣馃構馃挭馃榿馃寛馃
#recovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamiliy #edsoldier #edfree #edsurvivor #anorexia #anarecovery #recover #realcovery #realrecovery #eattogrow #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #positiverecovery #edfighter #beatana #beatanorexia #eatingdisorder #foodisfuel #healthynotskinny #ed #edfam #edfood #edarmy #anafamily #edcommunity

lunch was a chicken - lettuce - tzatziki whole wheat wrap with some veggies on the side 馃榾
now my glutes are burning and I'm getting back to work - finals are coming 馃槺

MACROS :
497 calories
28g protein
39g carbs
22g fat
馃崙 + two peaches for a snack/dessert I'm going to eat in a while
108 calories
0.5g protein
26g carbs
0g fat

Feeling fine 馃挭

#fit #cleaneating #food #fruit #veggies #happy #healthy #realcovery #nosugar #sugarfree #detox

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