Eating disorder doesn't affect just you: it affects everyone around you. It changes the way you feel about you, and it surely convinces you that everyone thinks the same way about you. That everyone judges you as harshly as you do. But that isn't true.
And want to know something else?
You are loved even if you don't love yourself 💜
I want to highlight the fact that ED changes the way you think about youself. You may be very judgemental of yourself and judge yourself harshly. But remember that it isn't the absolute truth: no one else sees you the same way.
Don't let your ED to lurk in and convince that everyone thinks the same about you because that is a lie. Your ED is a liar.
So if you're in a relationship, your partner has fallen in love with you for a reason, and that reason is you 💜
Talk. Speak. Be open about how you feel. Do not turn quiet and expect your partner to read your mind because no one can do that. If you fear being touched, speak about that.
If you're ashaimed of something about your body, speak about that.
I know, this is far from easy but please, try to speak, or write a letter if speaking openly is too hard.
Find a way to tell how you feel 💜
I struggle daily with my changed body. Many days are "ugly days", days when I feel the ugliest person on the planet. That can affect my mood, but instead of turning to silent treatment like before, I speak. I tell to my bf that I'm feeling so unattractive, I'm bloated, I'm not feeling my best. And it helps. It doesn't turn the ugly day to pretty day, but talking about it helps. And when my bf tells me how pretty I look and how fabulous I am, it helps me to realize that this is all in my head, that others do NOT see me the way I see myself!
Yeah.. My bf compliments me like dozen times a day which I'm still getting used to 🙈💜.
It's scary, relationships, because you put so much emotional capital in that, and ED is often a coping mechanism, but don't turn to it anymore. Work your way to full recovery, and I strongly recommend you to be honest and open with your partner.
Work on your bodyimage and selflove.
Because everything you invest in you can be seen in every aspect of your life 💜