Emotions are sometimes tough to navigate. I hesitated taking this and posting it but I've decided to because seeing this on someone else's feed would honestly make me feel better.
Today has been hard. It started off silly. Normal morning. When Maeve and I got home, I noticed right away that she was so tearful. She was crying over everything. I try so hard to be patient with her, to let her express herself how she needs, but what happens when I need time too? My patience is lost on her because I don't even have it for myself. She was fighting the nap and so I gave her another option to lay and listen to calming music. She is her usual happy self now. But now here comes the mama guilt that I didn't show her enough patience earlier, I'm irritated by everything. It brings me back to the days when I was nursing and felt repulsed by it. Severe aversion. Too much touch. Too much energy exchange. Not enough solitude to recharge ME. I will not lie and say it is easy being an energy sensitive empath and a mother all the time, especially a stay at home one. There is no break. At the same time, I wouldn't have it any other way. Sometimes those emotions are so much that I forget that I need to release too. So cry. Let it happen. Exhale and release. Feel. It's funny how when you start to cry and tune into your feelings, what comes up. I cry for my younger self, I cry for my mother, I cry for my daughter. Now I feel ok. And just then, Maeve comes over to me to tell me she loves me and gives me a hug, explaining to me that she just needed a mommy like me. That she loves me around the whole galaxy. We need each other in a perfect balancing way, she has been my greatest teacher and my greatest tool in understanding myself. #rawemotion #empath #feel #honestmotherhood #motherhoodrising