What God is teaching/reminding me of tonight: first, I have purpose. Not just one single purpose to carry out in this lifetime, but daily purpose. We were all created with a purpose, for a purpose. Second, God is the only One who can completely fulfill us. I am a broken person that continues to carry a lot and resentment for certain pains from my past, and it's easy to buy into the lie that life would be better if circumstances were different. I dwell on thoughts of what life would be like without insecurity, which leads to believing that if I was beautiful by the societal standards, and if I lost weight according to societal standards, life would be better. I put more faith in fleeting and failing things than I do in the Lord. My hope is found more in how my outfit and makeup will make me feel, and less in who God says I am. He created us for WAY more than what we look like...appearance has nothing to do with God's purpose for me, because His purpose is far more important, and deserves FAR more attention than our appearance does. If I fought as hard for my relationship with the Lord as I do to feel secure and confident, well...I just don't think I'd care as much about security in the exterior because I'd be more secure in the Lord. Something I need to work on. Third, God deserves all of me, not just the parts I'm willing and comfortable to give. A truly abundant and rich life in Jesus starts with letting Him have our entire hearts, and trusting that He fulfills us more than all the other things we turn to for comfort and happiness. I want to get to a place where I desire the joy of the Lord more than temporary happiness and gratification. I want to get to a place where the world has no power over how I view myself because my identity is found in Christ alone. I want to love Jesus to the point of willingness to sacrifice anything in my life He might call me to let go of in faith that He sees me, knows me, and has what's best in store for me. I am thankful to be loved by a God who knows my brokenness, and cherishes me despite it. I have yet to grasp how big of a deal that is, but I want to.