I wasn't just young, #14, and a winner. Beyond everything happening was more than glitz and glamour. The truth is for years I was being fed with hurtful words, like how I'm immature, selfish, stupid, a man or how I'm simply not doing enough on a regular basis, that I've actually believed them. I went on in life believing I was a toxic person, and that my fear of talking to other ppl was based on my maturity, that if a where to receive less than I give or was being cheated on or physically, emotionally and verbally abused that it was always my fault.
I didn't really realize the situation I was in until the Domestic Violence Victims Center called me to talk to me with how I was feeling. It was then I realized who I became and that I needed help. Don't get me wrong, good things had happened through out the years as well and I'm very thankful for my life but I was trapped. I don't know how to explain it but it's the feeling that you don't know that there is better because you were constantly put down so you settle with what you have.
Honestly, I think the only thing that kept me going was my faith that there is good and that I believe love is not about deserve. I'm writing this because I'm still healing and I feel like it's my duty to help others like how I have always been and to also come in peace within myself and the past. And to whoever is reading pls don't don't be afraid to say how u feel. Also a huge thank you to everyone who's been checking up on me, friends that I'm finally reconnecting and those who are helping me remind me who I am.
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