I work hard and I start to go up and up and up, as high as I can get
But a minute after I get there, I go all the way down, only this time I'm much lower than where I've been.
There I live for a while, dwelling in the black mud, till someone decides it's time for my next insight. Suddenly everything is open again and so forth.
All the purpose of going up is to go down every time to a lower, much darker place.
And the idea is to know when I'm going up or down, cause if I go down, it's difficult and I need to prepare myself.
To remind me it's temporary and it won't last forever.
And even if I don't feel anything right now, no light, no reinforcement, I need to keep on going. Bow my head, waiting for this wave to go over me, till the next climb.
And what all of this is for?
To find sparks. Collect the diamonds hidden in the black mud.
It's not a nock out triumph.
You win earning points.