I've been thinking a lot about failure today. The other day, someone asked my husband if he ever failed publicly at anything. His response was no. ✨
I was a little bit baffled, because I have failed publicly. SO much. I have failed publicly more than I have succeeded. I failed a voice competition when my voice cracked and I got the giggles. I failed being awarded a very prestigious scholarship because my answers were ridiculous and unplanned. I failed winning salutatorian because I literally got a 54 on my English final (and English was my best subject and I was a straight A student). I failed teaching many fitness classes. People have walked out of my class. I have lost my place. I have cried publicly when I was supposed to be entertaining. I failed when I quit my job as a fitness instructor and then I failed at failing when I begged for my job back when I realized what a mistake I made.
My work is public, and I fail at it all the time. Just today, I failed to accrue the minimum number of participants for a retreat for a project that has been near and dear to my heart for the last year. I have been trying and trying to make this idea happen, and after over a year of pushing and working so hard, I have failed. Totally. ✨
But the thing is, once you experience public failure as much as I have, you let it wash off you pretty quickly. Whereas I would have been upset about this recent failure for weeks, today it was just a couple of hours. ✨
When things fail, over and over again, to me it's a sign that I'm barking up the wrong tree. And so I appreciate failure as a guidepost to tell me, "Hey, Amie, headed in the wrong direction." Does it still sting? Sure it does. And some failures feel bigger than others.
But I know my success is only success because I have never once let failure stop me from moving forward. I have never decided to no longer risk. I have never decided to hide away. I have never decided to let failure win and let the learning experience die.
And then you move forward.
If you find yourself failing, lately, at doing the dishes or at your career, at pleasing your mom or practicing self care, at launching a... (cont. in comments)