It's been a while since I've done a "transformation tuesday" - I don't like to look back at the photos on the right often as sometimes it can be triggering (as it slightly was earlier tonight)
However, I now know how to deal with this. I look back on photos and sure I was much smaller than I am now, and sure I wore a smaller pant size and sure I hadn't see the scale that low since high school. Did any of that bring happiness???? Did annnnny of that make my physical or mental health any better???? No. Absolutely not.
Despite me hitting my goal weight I was NOT happy or physically/mentally healthy. It was very, very confusing. The more the scale went down, the more I HATED what I saw, despite being told my whole life that thinner = happier 🤷
So I no longer have visible obliques, I no longer have delts or bis that pop and yes, I have a lot more fat on me now but I am 263917292719x happier AND healthier than where I was on the right 🙌💃I am never going to allow myself to try and shrink again trying to find happiness and self-love 🙅 because I promise you, it was not worth it.
#ilovemybeautifulbody (haven't used that hashtag in a while 🤷) #antihighlightreel