💋 HARD WEEK ..... 💋
It’s been a very hard week, month, etc. So many trauma anniversaries that started at the end of March. Plus, female cycle and issues with that, random fevers, etc. i’ve been trying as hard as I can but still not doing great. •
After doing another cry session this morning I started thinking very seriously about people that have hurt me. I don’t want revenge, I don’t want anger, I don’t want hate. I don’t even wish for anything bad to happen to them. Instead ..... I want to get well. I want to recover.
I WANT TO PISS THEM OFF BY BEING STABLE, HAPPY, etc. I realized that at the .... end that is the ultimate revenge. It’s not true revenge. But, they want you to keep getting worse. They seem to delight in your misery. •
Why give them more fuel? These people have even questioned the psychiatric service dog choice. It’s not like I haven’t been through every other medical choice possible. I’ve even had genetic testing for medications and out of 28 antidepressants 26 are contraindicated for me. They also don’t “believe“ in my physical invisible illnesses because “you look healthy“. I’ve got to remove that toxicity and those people from my life.
I’m doing what I can with what I have. I am still trying to get freelance work and sell items to make money for training the puppy once he comes. I have a very small window so I know that’s added stress. But, I’m going to try my best to think positive even when I’m feeling like crap. Thank you again to all who have donated. You are amazing. Thank you to those who have shared, like, etc. love and hugs ❤️💋
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