Have you ever heard a song, a inspiational quote, a person speak, or a passage in a book, that when you listen, I mean really listen to the words, can hit home so hard that your throat starts to tighten, tears start to well and the emotions come so fast and so hard it brings you to your knees? I think am a very positve person. I love people and adventures. Life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs, I just tend to ride the higher ground. I dont allow the fiery dragons breath of emotions to well up and overflow. I look at the better side of things and tend to be more generous than I should.
But this morning, just for a moment in time; Yup, that's me, a gelatinous pile of goo, unable to get up. Wanting more than ever for a pent up release of emotions to subside as they culminate in wave after wave over me again and again. There's that little voice inside my head that says, you're stronger then that. You dont cry! Get up, NEVER let them see your vulnerabilities and emotions. You have been thru some adventures that would break most people, but they don't need to know. Some may say, I've just been pushing too hard, or I have a lot going on. No, I know it's a wanting for more, a yearning for physical release, it's a desire to taste the unknown. It is anger at the losses and a hate for the feelings. It is frustration towards myself and fear of rejection from others. Its about giving up all that is real and concrete for the unknown and what lies ahead. It's about being vulnerable and raw and real. It's about letting go. Its about all the emotions that you, me and every being goes thru. I am fine, it is not pity nor advise i am looking for.
No I'm not depressed. I am having a Great day now. Sometimes you just gotta have A good cry. A lot of people write in a journal, I'm just telling you.
It's just about being human.
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