For much of my dance life, I avoided improvising because I've always harshly judged my dancing and I never really knew what to do with my body. Throughout this past year, I've had many teachers, friends, family, students and even strangers tell me to love myself, be myself and whatever my body does, accept, love and let it flow. At first I thought I was doing exactly that, but I found I wasn't really listening. Slowly but surely, I've learned to love and accept how my body moves without direction. I still judge myself, but I do it differently; with love and the perspective that it's constructive criticism. But learning this did not come easily. It took me a very long time to dance without thinking of what I should look like or how I think I should dance and just accept my true movement. It's hard not to listen to the voice inside your head and instead listen to your heart and that raw emotion deep inside you. I still have a lot of room for improvement and there's still much more I'd like to express, so I've challenged myself to improvise and videotape when possible to continue self exploration and hopefully turn that into choreography. To sort of conclude this long rant, I also really wanted to thank the people who have inspired and helped me find myself, because without so many people, I would not be where I am today. If you are listed below, you have done or said something in my life that has continued to inspire and influence me today and how I dance. Something these people did stayed with me all of these years and I am eternally grateful to have those inspirations with me. Some of these people may not even know my name, and some I have not talked to or seen in years, but I wanted to thank them all personally. But in the end, there are too many to list. If I ever danced with you, I thank you all for inspiring me everyday and keeping me driven. I am so happy to be where I am, and I'm so excited for the places I hope to go. I could not have done it without you all. So thank you. And if you can take anything from me, be and love yourself, for everything you are. Trust yourself and your path. More improv videos to come soon.
Song : Tennis Courts (flume remix)