My story although long hopefully helps someone! My belief is perseverance is continued effort through continued failures. I've failed a lot in life and it took me years to realize I needed to learn from my mistakes and not sulk on my wrongs. My story:
I was once suicidal, more concerned with fitting in and being a part of the group than blazing my own path. Was depressed that I never felt like I belonged. I finally figured out if I couldn't love myself no one else would ever accept me. It took me decades but I finally figured this out, and although I still have my ups and downs I'm proud of who I have become. My life changing moment "Just an average man with an above average dream on my chest. Not content with what I live like the rest. I'm the hero on my own stage that seems like I'm stuck in a rut in my own rage. I never told me miseries to anyone I'd given up on life bitter and done. Had the knife to my wrist feeling like the world would be better off, I knew I wouldn't be missed. Never had dates for the dances and ridiculed for my stances. I had all I could take why was I born a bitter mistake. Had the tears rolling down my face with that kitchen knife I was going to end my battle end my strife. I've been the butt of many a jokes of words and pokes never been a pride to my folks. At the scene where I died I saw a picture of my nieces and nephew starring as I cried. The only thing that made me put down the rage and pick up my life to carry on my play upon that stage. From that day on I knew I'd have to make up for that wrong. I'd have to build myself up and make them proud so I keep battling for Hope singing my joyous song up on loud. I've never been a role model or been someone to look up to but I knew in my heart I had to be something for you. Bryce, Collyn, and Madi I'd be here for you. When a tear rolled down your face I'd make sure I was there to show you your place. I'd show you how you love forward and advance with this I'd show you life is sometimes a battle it isn't always a bliss and and show you that we ever lost you you'd be missed. From the bottom of my heart I'll keep fighting for my life for my dreams until your smile through me it beams."