As a convert, i started fasting by myself in my own room, secretly heating up food ( sometimes i have to eat cold food packed since last night) and bringing them into my dark room. There was one particular day when my mum woke up and fiercely asking me what am i doing and told her i want to fast and she continued asking:"why? Want to become a malay ah? " Haha, those were epic yet memorable moments in a convert's journey towards embracing Islam. When you have set up your own family, the #predawnmeal and the #iftarmeal becomes less #lonesome for converts.
As we approached the end of Ramadan, i have done alot of reflections about how i have fared this year. I drew up a timetable hoping that i can better manage my time to set aside time for worship, for reading and for daily chores like thinking of what to prepare for our break fast meal (iftar). I think initially i was quite productive and followed through but gradually found myself distracted by some 'worldly affairs'. Living in these current times, i guessed sometimes it's inevitable that we get so engrossed in the things around us (Work, family, technology, social media, internet). Having gone through 12years of fasting and as you aged, the goals you want to achieve isnt just to fast from 0500 to 1900hrs, but wanting to develop and grow spiritually on this journey in this blessed month. I fervently seek God in my prayers to assist me with my affairs and seek to draw closer to God through increased devotional acts of worship. May God grant all of us His blessings, mercies and forgiveness and free from the torments of His punishment. Aamiin. May Allah swt accept our fasting and assist us in our endeavours to be better servants and Muslims in the other months onward. Aamiin. Wishing all an advance Eid Mubarak! #iftarmeal #pitawasprocessed #hamwasprocessed #zucchini #eggs #mushrooms #naturalgoodness #spiritualdevelopment #ramadangoals #12yearsoffasting #muslimconvertjourney #chinesemuslim #fasting #embracingfaithnotrace #challengesthatshapedyou