It's ok to not be ok.
I'm just going to shout that... ITS OK TO NOT BE OK!
It's ok to be overwhelmed & lost at times.
It means you are human.
I am & this morning was my breaking point.
I had to call my hubby home as I was an angry, anxiety ball of mess. I threw my kids table in frustration. I broke it. I then sobbed hysterically for 30mins in front of my kids. I was broken & beat.
I'm am not ok, but that's ok. I am now reaching out for help & talking about it.
Why am I sharing this? Because it needs to be spoken about more freely. Mothers particularly need to speak more. They don't need to carry any shame with their emotions or feelings. There is absolutely NO shame in not being ok. And maybe if we speak freely others will reach out to help instead of those suffering trying to find it whilst juggling everything else.
I know my triggers, I know why I feel like this, I guess I'm lucky, maybe? I know I need self care & exercise. These are my fixes, these things make my human again & today I can see that while I try to give myself to everyone else, I need to be doing more to replenish my soul.
I'm telling you, my fellow tribe member, you are amazing. You may not feel like it but you are. You don't have to always have your shit together. You don't have to meet those ridiculously high standards you have set and you most certainly don't have to always give & never receive.
Stay at home or working Mum. Mainstream or crunchy. Breastfeeding or bottle feeding. Cosleeping or not. One child or ten. Married or single. We ALL have dark days. Days of self sabotage, isolation & hurt. Days where we feel like failures. Days when you just can't see past the dark clouds that have formed.
Well, I'm here with you. I give you the space to be you, to see you & to find the confidence to speak up.
I did today, I spoke up. I reached out & I will shift that darkness of the stress from the last few days.
You are never alone, I'm here with you ❤️✌🏻 PS, this was really hard for me to share with the WORLD, but I'm so glad I did!