Spent yesterday afternoon shooting videos of myself "dancing" and fell even further down the rabbit hole in terms of realizing how much goes into this. And how difficult it is to fake confidence, conviction, energy...my biggest challenge right now is not making stupid faces when I dance. Not looking like Bambi on ice. Not looking pissed when I fuck up. I've sought advice from my dance mentors (favorite so far "you have to be thinking 'you're welcome, audience' every single second you're performing"), and I think I got my work cut out for me. Learnin how to give good face and show everybody my power when I've been busy trying to be invisible and not piss anybody off for most of my life. Pole life lessons, man.