THOSE LOCKED HANDS ON THE WAY "How many dollars for this one, miss?", you ask while I arrange those books in my bookshop.
My narrowed eyes try to capture that smile, zooming in and blurring the surrounding. "Dad!!!!? ", I shout. And I embrace you in excitement, though it's not my kind of act.
I shrug off the excitement aside and still wonder how did you make all this way, oceans far to visit me. "Is New York being easy on you?", you ask sipping the coffee in the restaurant beside my bookshop. They were playing 90s songs and you seemed to enjoy the music. I was glad to see your shoulders move and feet tap on some English tune. "Yes, it is. Dad.", I say.
'Dad, but it's all set. I have a flight this midnight", I stood in front of you with a degree in hand and my dream in another.
In that moment, I was dreadful about my voice, to ask you to let me leave this time. Somewhere to live once, somewhere to realize , how does it feel to see a dream come true.
I remember the time when you came at the other side of the road to help me cross it.
"Dad? I am an adult now. I know how to cross this road ", I shy away and still hold your hand. It felt like a warm embrace at a wintery night on that crowded road. A relief.
"Haha. I know. But, for me, you'd always remain my doll", you say holding onto the grip.
With trembling hands and heart beats roaring like loudspeakers I stood their like a statue. All this time, he kept me in the cave, but he taught me to be a rebel. Someone who could walk out. Someone, who has lost her fear and someone who could make it through everything.
"We would video call sooner ", a heavy voice with a tear at the side of the eyes hovered the surrounding. I was gone numb for a while and I broke into tears after seeing you let me fly.
"It's Father's day, Dad. Today, I'm selling a bunch of books for free", I say.
He smiles. And takes that book for himself, leaving a note on the table which said "I'm proud of you." Sure, the grip of our hands were set free, but I still loved to walk on these paths with your hands locked into mine disguised as the care. ©_shweta
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