She was afraid of him. No, he did not hit her, he did not abuse her, he was kind and humble and loved her mind and her body and gave her all that she wanted, spent time with her and sang for her and danced and cooked great meals and cuddled with her in bed at night but yes, she was afraid of him.
He was all she could want in one but his eyes, his eyes didn't feel home. She loved him, more than she had loved anyone before but his arms, his arms were cold even on a summer night. She was happy, happier than how anyone had ever made her but their walks, their walks always seemed to end long before they were meant to.
Ah, he was gorgeous, none could be so compared to him even at heart but when she touched his chest at night, she felt no beat. She could hear him breathe but there was no warmth in his kiss.
No doubt he cared for her. He tended to all her needs and took care of her when she was sick and picked her up from office whenever she wanted and sometimes, gave her little surprises by showing up with flowers or even better, with food.
But his smile, his smile was never complete. It ended way before the lines on his cheeks, he had smiled wider before but he doesn't now.
She too was great. She would spend all her time with him and would want to spend more but she kept looking at her watch. She knew she had no place to be and yet where she was, was not where she would rather be.
She was afraid she would not find another like him. She was afraid she would lose something she always had wanted and would never have it again, yet she wondered how in an attempt to keep one person, she had lost another, herself.
This would be hard, she no longer needed to be afraid. Why should she be if what was meant to be was already in her arms? Perhaps there was something better outside but it was scary.
Only if she knew when to say no, she would have her years back, only if she knew when to stop, she could look around to see where she had ended up. Only if she knew how not to love, she would realise love was even more special.
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