Yesterday at work I heard one of the worst memories of child abuse I’ve ever heard. Gut-wrenching. The client had no idea because I didn’t tear up but I was choking back guttural sobs. My chest and stomach hurt. I had rapid thoughts like “OMG I CANT DO THIS. I can’t take on trauma like this. My body can’t handle it. I have to change careers.” 😰
My God-given talent is being able to withstand this stuff like a fucking warrior and still manage to think of things to do and say to help people heal. Sometimes we are called to sacrifice some or all of ourselves for others.
Life moves SO FAST, I forgot about this horribly uncomfortable moment mere minutes later. Didn’t even think of it again until hubs asked how my day was. The emotional intensity of remembering that moment was far lower. I’d had SO MANY good moments and laughs at work. My kids were being really cute around me.
My point in all this?
It’s not just my clients who get stuck focusing on the negative. Look at the thoughts I had while I was experiencing those tough emotions.
Emotions are not reality.
Emotions are fleeting.
I went from thinking I need to change careers to loving my job moments later.
I’ve gone from thinking “holy shit, I’m raising demons” to “ok these girls are amazing, I must be doing some things right.”
Change the channel. 💥
That’s the theme of my 9:00 group today.
Change the goddamn channel in your mind. 🧠
We all have made many mistakes, some huge.
We’ve all done dumb or dangerous things to try to avoid uncomfortable feelings.
Let that ish go. 👌🏼
Focus on what you’ve done RIGHT.
What has gone RIGHT in your life.
Focus on the blessings around you.
I used to think I had bad days.
A) My clients would take my “bad days” any day over theirs.
B) I had bad MOMENTS in my day. Rarely are entire days entirely bad.
That being said, some of my clients live in abject poverty even with DSS “help.” (Not slamming DSS. Some of this is due to poor communication/self-advocacy skills.) My point: sometimes I have to go to the donation closet here at work and give them toiletries, laundry soap, pads, etc., so if you want to help out, message me. 💗