I have lupus. There's no pretty way to say it. I was aware that because of my autoimmune blood disorder, I could develop other similar conditions, but honestly, I didn't expect it, or that it was so soon. Yes, I had felt a little worse these months, but I assumed that as always, it was a whim of my body and with whatever of stronger treatment, I would be ok.
But they say that the hospital is the only place where positive means bad: and I check it to my bad star, for the second time. That doctors give you a new diagnosis when every day you try to bear another one has no adjective.
They gave me the diagnosis a week and a half ago, when I saw what will be from now on, my rheumatologist. And I don't want to hear that at least it's not cancer, or hear about how strong I am because right now I don't feel very strong. It's a process of acceptance, and as such, and pass by one the first time, although that doesn't mean that this occasion is not hard. It is, but the good of having already learned by the bad with the blood, is that I know that I am able to give double the battle now that they are two sufferings, but I need time to process everything.
That's why I decided to change my appearance; because I know a change would do me good. Most because the rheumatologic treatment is more aggressive and possibly leave me bald again. In fact, my hair has been falling out lately. So before anything happens, I renew, put beautiful and take care of myself, because I am determined that neither ITP nor lupus together, define my appearance.
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