Some background about myself- I used to be pedantic over what I used to eat. I made trips to the organic farmer’s market every week as a ritual- because I had an arrogance to choose food that was superior over others. I mean, it is true that organic vegetables are better, but sacrificing my own peace by making that great effort to revolve my life and joy around going to the Farmers market just to get $20 of veggies for the week made me lose a sense of greater purpose. Of helping others, of spending my time and presence with (non-vegan) friends, of losing out the shared experience of their lives with them through meal experiences. The human connection which contributed to the eternal joys of life were somehow compromised with my own idea of what made me happy.
This scriptural passage has been guiding my philosophy on food and how I view eating for the past 2 years I was away from @eatwithintention.
“Nothing that enters a person from the outside can defile them. For it doesn’t go into their heart but into their stomach, and then out of the body.
What comes out of a person is what defiles them. For it is from within, out of a person’s heart, that evil thoughts come—sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.”
I started to take more care of my soul, which I had neglected while chasing the perfection of food entering my body. The rewards do pay off. +
I don’t use food anymore as a comfort for emotional pain I may be feeling.
I don’t abuse food to punish myself when my conscience says I’m not doing something in line with God’s will. There’s the divine Sacraments of Confession and Eucharist for soul healing!
I don’t worry too much about whether I’m going to starve, because starving is not seen as a pain I have to avoid. I can starve with joy; the pain I feel from starving is devoted to the pain of the hungry, and reminds me to help others who don’t have creature comforts so readily as I do.
I don’t think about feeding myself ‘perfect food’ to have a perfect life- because there’s *more* to life than scouring the earth for perfect food.