"Excessive planning" 🙄
"When your mind spins with multiple plans"
Definitely stuff that I do in survival mode. I get sick of the surprises of life (unless it involves cake, balloons, or a new puppy). I always want to be one step ahead, even if that involves taking a few quick, intense steps in order to do so. This gets exhausting. And it sometimes doesn't pan out. There have been quite a few times it has totally saved by rear. But, in the end, I realize I can't predict everything, I can't protect us from everything, and I definitely can't make everything ok all the time. The weight of this constant saving & fixing attitude is crushing. So, I wait. I pray. I surrender it all to God. I learn to accept help. I try to be vulnerable instead of stubborn. I aim for patience instead of fear. And I remind myself minute to minute about these things. ❤️❤️❤️