Yoga is my saving grace! Strength with Grace 🙏🏼 Not gonna lie, going through some intense emotions these past few months... Through practising yoga and showing up on my mat, I am more accepting, loving , compassionate and supportive of myself..
Reminds me of sthira and sukha. Steadiness and Ease which can also be translated to Effort and Ease. Consistency of practicing yoga is currently allowing me to work through challenges that arise. Today I practised in the heated studio.. a perfect flow which had my ego knocking me around and trying to wear me down with shitty, depleting self talk.. yet, on a higher level, another voice kept saying ‘Just listen to the cues! Don’t think, just do’... which was working well until the tightness in my chest reared it’s ugly head, I was losing my breath, couldn’t fill my lungs with air, no matter how much I pleaded with myself to relax. So I stood my ground, in Tadasana with hands at heart centre, Samasthiti, while the class kept going through their flow around me. It’s exactly how life is outside the yoga room where the world doesn’t just stand still because of one person! We keep evolving.. I stood still on my mat and let everything inside me swirl. The unrelenting chaos stirring from deep inside me, rising up into my chest, wreaking havoc of nausea, lightheaded, panic, rage, teary... a plethora of emotions fighting their way to the surface.. and I allowed it to happen! I gave myself permission to do what needed to be done, without truly knowing what that was!
Then somehow I found myself in Hero’s pose, eyes closed and tears silently rolling down my face.. accepting this as part of my practise today helped shift and clear the energy with much more ease. It’s just where I’m at today. I love this process of detoxification. It wasn’t too long before I was back in the flow alongside the rest of the class, practising at my own pace. There was no need for me to go so deep into every pose anymore, to not have to do any more than what I was already doing. To not do anymore than what had been done.. I had done all that I can and that was enough 💜 Today was OMazing!
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