I’ve only just been finding out about anti-diet culture the past couple months (yes I’ve been living under a parenthood rock) and been having a mini crisis about nutrition, myself and my role within diet culture. I was pretty confident that I was eating with awareness and listening to my body, not my eating disorder but about a month ago I decided to do a little experiment to see and decided to eat whatever I want, which in reality meant whatever generally is deemed desirable (sugar) and I usually limit for myself. So I’ve been eating loads of cakes, brownies, crisps, chips, pasta and sauce, store bought pies and take outs. And I feel shit. Probably mostly due to the fact that I’m only 💩Ing once a day and I used to go three times a day like a champ and felt fucking great. I dislike my body at the moment and not because I’ve put on weight because I’ve gotten to a really good place of not caring about that but because I feel slow sluggish lazy and crap. I don’t like myself feeling like this, and hello anxiety 👋. —————————-
So my conclusion is, my restricting certain foods and focusing on whole foods not processed ones is not my eating disorder talking. It’s me listening to my body and responding to what I need. Not everyone needs or wants to eat like me and that’s great, because they need to do what feels good for them.
Tonight I made my first proper home cooked meal in a long while, peanut butter vegetable curry with brown rice 😋 onions, garlic, ginger, tomatoes, coconut milk, cumin, cayenne, peanut butter, carrots, sweet potato, cauliflower, cabbage, mange tout, peanuts, coriander and lime. Overflowing with flavour, protein and F I B E R. Feels good to be back in my mojo. Vince loves this recipe too 👍👌👍👌👍