So much gratitude to @sophiegamand
for such raw and pure words that speak true to all of us whose purpose is to make a positive imprint on this world, especially when it comes to making the difference for those who don't have a voice of their own. Here's to compassion towards these beautiful creatures, one another, and ourselves.
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I have been struggling quite a bit for the past few months. Can’t put my finger on it, just general sluggishness and absence of creative desire. I feel like I am battling something really deep, one of those old demons, as I call them. Not sure what this one has to say precisely, except it felt pretty rotten: you are a failure, a loser, lonely, depressed, fat, not talented. You will never do anything else than Flower Power, and people are already losing interest. Look, you don’t even have 1 million followers like those cute dogs and cats around Instagram. You probably don’t even get animals adopted anymore. You will never achieve anything more. This is it. I hope you enjoyed it while it lasted. You may as well just disappear in a tiny little hole, nobody will even notice. Yeah, I guess that particular demon had a lot to say after all. I treated this rough time like a true battle. I chose my weapons and I made conscious decisions: lots of cookies, lots of doggie snuggles, art classes, meditation, reading, watching, observing the beast while trying to be kind to myself. I mostly failed. Today I cried during an art class. That’s kind of my specialty, actually. I don’t think I can remember an art class when I didn’t cry at some point. I went home and I treated myself to a big fat slice of cake, took a nap, then I stood up and gathered everything that was left in me. It wasn’t much. I hugged MacLovin and I think he understood that he needed to be by my side for this particular battle. He sat and held his pose. Something was different today. He knew it. This isn’t much, but damn, it feels like a victory. Much love to all my creative friends out there. xxx
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