On a regular basis I check social media for a daily dose of motivation. Today I didn't search beyond my camera roll.
Right now I'm simultaneously crazy embarrassed and ridiculously proud! It's both really hard to share and not share these pictures. Here is my ONE MONTH progress check! One month of eating A WHOLE LOT cleaner and moving A WHOLE LOT MORE. I couldn't freakin believe it when I put these pictures side by side!
I can't begin to describe how down I've been feeling about my appearance for the last few months. My clothes don't fit, I had to go buy new pants, I'm walking with my shoulders and head low, finding ways to hide my body and even hating being in pictures. Lets just say I've REALLY been struggling.
Those feelings don't go away just because you're doing better by your body. Just a few days ago I was huffing and puffing about meal prepping. It's hard work man! When it's not a habit (yet) leading a healthy lifestyle can be challenging; it's uncomfortable. You better believe I was ready to throw in the towel that particular day. "What am I doing this for anyway, I don't feel or see a difference." I heard all those familiar excuses creeping in my head, "this is expensive, this takes too much time, I'm tired of eating all these damn vegetables!" But I kept telling myself "choose your hard Elena". Yes, it can be difficult to get that workout done regularly and have to cook your food all the damn time, but it's even harder to live uncomfortably in an unhealthy body. Feeling bloated, lethargic and just overall big AF is so much worse than that broccoli.
Now don't get is twisted. I'm not body shaming my curves. I love my curves and being a thick woman...well it's sexy as hell lol. But that belly in this pic isn't a healthy or natural curve my friends.
A few mornings ago I woke up and noticed something different in the mirror. I decided to snap a pic and I immediately knew something had changed. These pictures has been the single most motivating factor to keep going. Today I feel completely inspired by myself. 🙂 The scale reflects 🖐🏼 pounds. But to me this progress reflects daily discipline, daily wins beyond what the mind wants and consistency.