When life’s a beeeeatch go to the beach, they say. Something about the wind and the waves and all that nature being therapeutic. And so I did. With poetry. But the beach was cold and the wind kept whipping all my pages AND hair making me grouchier than I was when I left the house, so I read for like 12 minutes in the car with a view of the lighthouse and then bailed for coffee and the comfort of pajama pants at home. 🤷🏻♀️
Apparently, Spring dropped by for my birthday and then made like a leaf. Sunshine eases my heartache for a hot minute, but dark skies are never far behind.
See, I haven’t seen or spoken to my brother in 5 years and every year I think it will be a little easier, letting go of him, but it isn’t. His absence shreds our family in countless unspoken ways, and on birthdays and holidays and pretty much every day I miss who he used to be, still adjusting to the gaping hole in my heart where he used to reside. . .
I don’t know why family members suck so thoroughly sometimes, but I’ve had some meaningful conversations with a few of you about it and I’m always surprised by how common family upheaval and estrangement is. Knowing you’re not alone helps. Also hugs. 💓 Sometimes wine, but not too much. And just like it’s been since the day I started reading, books. ALL THE BOOKS. 🙌🏼 Reminder: The princess saves herself, and builds an empire while doing it. 💪🏼👑 Hug your people, people. We all need a little more love. 🤟🏼💞🙌🏼
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