I am feeling crazy anxious this morning. Today is not a day I feel ready for. After the stress of last week and 12 hour days, the weekend hasn't been enough to charge my batteries.
I've got my appraisal this morning and I'm terrified they are going to 'tell me off.' Even if they say one tiny negative thing I will magnify it by a thousand and that's all I will take away from it, even if they follow up with lots of positivity.
My sheer workload is enough to make my heart race. And I just cannot face another week like last week, I feel like it would burn me out.
I've also got a million pound client who has emailed me over the weekend, and wants me to go and see him. Anxiety overload!! But I'm sat up, I've got a bit of make up on and I'm preparing myself to get up and dressed. But getting dressed brings a whole other wave of insecurities and anxiety. I'm going to look fat in whatever I wear. BUT how I look isn't going to affect my appraisal, and it's not going to affect my workload. And if I don't go in, the work will be waiting for me tomorrow with even less time to do it in.
So, time to get up, get in, get on and get the fuck out.
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