how old are you? - @ripfairy -
Let me tell you something about heartbreak.
Heartbreak isn’t something that everyone experiences. But it will happen to you. You’ll be young. Free. You won’t have a care in the world and you’ll be going amazing in school. You won’t see it coming. You won’t have known him for long, two to three months. That’s usually how it happens. Honestly, he’ll rock your world, he’ll be all you think about every dying hour. The things you read in books, saw in movies – will all finally make sense. You’ll fall harder than he will though. It will all just go so fast, and he’ll tell you he never meant for this to happen. But it’s too late because you’ve already fallen for him. And it won’t make any sense whatsoever because everyone around you seems to be happy and they seem to be finding what they wanted, so it will never make sense why he left. Your friends won’t even know what heartbreak is, because they’re too happy to see you falling to pieces. It will seem like everyone around you is in love, and when someone comes to you – you won’t even know how to help them. The world won’t make sense anymore and you’ll lose sleep thinking through every broken ended conversation wondering what you did wrong. It will seem like the end of the world. So you’ll turn your attention to someone new, someone who you can never have – so you won’t end up heartbroken again. But you will, in fact it will end worse than the first one.
A friend told me that heartbreak is simple and that I’d get over it soon. That was over two years ago. I never thought I’d spend most of my nights ending in tears into my pillow. I’m too young to be this sad, I’m too young to be this broken. I’ve moved on so many times, and I get so close but I’ll never be what they want. I’ll never be who he wants me to be.
Don’t ever tell anyone that heartbreak isn’t hard, or that they can get through it. You don’t know until you cry yourself to sleep for weeks on end because you weren’t the one.