IVF Round 3 Day 5
Day 5 started out with a bang. An emotional bang. I woke up moody and irritable. Wow, is this what this is supposed to feel like? I feel liberated; I can say whatever I want and not suffer the consequences. Wait… I have to limit my interpersonal interactions today. I literally never get moody. I don’t usually have mood swings, because I don’t usually have enough hormones in my body to influence that kind of mean-spirited behaviour, but dang, I am loving this!
I say something ridiculously mean using a few of my choicest words and immediately start laughing uncontrollably. It’s like an out-of-body experience that I for sure am experiencing outside of myself. The laughing is the realisation 2 seconds later that I am acting like a crazy person. Just looking at my husband’s face made me feel really guilty because I wanted to fight him to the death (for no real reason whatsoever). Mind you, he has the most gorgeous face on the south side of the equator, but this morning he could do nothing right! We needed to get my OCD, highly stressed out, anxiety-ridden, panic-mechanic Golden Retriever Daisy (2.5years) to the vet, so I drove while my husband tried to pacify her in the back seat without much retribution. The entire experience was a disaster and I made things no easier for any of us.
Today I continue with my natural (homeopathic and naturopathic) meds only because the course of Femara from the Fertility Clinic has run its course and was only meant to be taken for 5 days, which I did from Tuesday all through Saturday. I continue to feel those beautiful feelings of activity in both my right and left ovaries and continue to see EWCM. I have decided that I am going to visit my Fertility Clinic tomorrow morning (Day 8) versus Wednesday (Day 10) because I don’t want to miss out on any egg retrieval opportunities especially since I am not on anything controlling ovulation at this point because I was such a poor responder during Round 2. I settle down with some Lorenz gluten free potato crisps and a hot cup of cocoa with my feet back in my hot water bucket. The hotter the better; I am trying to heat up an oven here!
#prematureovarianfailure #ivf #pof