This post is about laxative abuse, so possible trigger warning...
RECOVERY FROM LAXATIVE ABUSE IS POSSIBLE!
You have to be patient. You have to trust your body. But most importantly, you have to tell your doctor!
I used to think I was the only one abusing laxatives. But I've come to realize that lax abuse is the dark underbelly of the eating disorder world. It is shockingly common. I know this because in the year that I've openly talked about my own abuse, I've received hundreds of messages about it.
It saddens me. It terrifies me. It pains me. And it frustrates me.
Most doctors, specialists, therapists, and even ED treatment centers have no idea just how widespread this problem is because no one is willing to talk about it! There are no statistics regarding lax abuse. How are doctors supposed to help us heal from this if we keep it a secret?!? There needs to be research done to develop methods of recovery! But it can't happen if we all stay silent!
•if you starve, OD on lax, and all that comes out is bile, blood, and intestines (like me),
•if you binge and then purge using laxatives,
•if you follow your meal plan, but are dependent on lax for daily BMs,
IT DOESN'T MATTER...
LAXATIVES ARE LAXATIVES!
ABUSE IS ABUSE!
BREAKING THE CYCLE OF ABUSE IS HARD, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE AND IT IS SO WORTH IT!
Laxatives can kill you!
I never thought I'd end up in the hospital being told my kidneys had failed and that I needed to get my affairs in order. But that's exactly what happened in February.
I never thought I'd experience so much physical pain from my ED. But I did and sometimes I still do.
I never thought I'd be able to consistently process solid foods, digest them fully, and be pooping regularly and on my own.
JUST LOOK AT ME NOW!
If you are using laxatives in any form, in any amount, please, I urge you to tell your doctor immediately. Be open, be honest, be completely truthful. Doctors need to know. Research needs to happen. Do it for yourself. Do it for everyone suffering. Do it for future generations.
You deserve recovery.
You deserve happiness.
You deserve life.