* long post 😉 This morning I had one of many upcoming appointments to get ready for this damn surgery. It really didn't come as a big shock to me and I knew it was coming down the pipe, but I didn't expect it THIS soon, (i'll be thirty in just over a month, so I'll be 29 when I have it done). This time last year (October 13th 2016) I had an endometrial ablation, tubal ligation, and dilation and curettage. I was having constant pain and bleeding and I was so emotional about it. There were several times before the surgery that I would see blood and just cry. I was a mess. After the surgery everything seemed great up until the last few months. I've been in constant pain in my left cervical region and if it wasn't the awful sharp shooting pain, it's the nagging and always there pressure and dull pain. It's become my "normal" really. I basically live with a warm rice sock attached to me because it not only helps the pain, it's comforting.
Over the last six months, I've had my pap and repap and they are both coming back irregular. I have a large cyst on my left ovary as well as pelvic congestive syndrome, which is similar to varicose veins in my uterus, super painful! The pain is starting to really effect my mood and activities, and the bleeding has also come back. After a discussion with my doctor and a couple days to think about it, it was decided that a hysterectomy is the best course of action for me.
I already can't, and don't want to have more babies (most days;) so I'm not dealing with that emotional loss that I know many women feel when having a hysterectomy. I'm terrified, honestly, because I've never had "major surgery." I'm emotional about the recovery. I'm sad about missing my son's first basketball practice and game. I'm sad about not being able to pick up my daughter, who has recently become attached to my hip ❤ #hysterectomy #oophorectomy #pelviccongestionsyndrome #surgery #recovery #health #mother #momof2 #wcw #pain #chronicpain #womencrushwednesday #hystersister ❤