Last year I was in a bad place. 12 months into an 20 +month free fall. I was depressed and hurting. I felt alone. I pushed people away. I pushed the people that I care about and love away. I pushed away the people I needed most. I was arrogant, stupid, stubborn, the list could go on but simply put I was wrong. In pushing people away I lost friendships, I lost time that could have been. I felt more and more alone. I eventually hit a point where I couldn’t do it any more.
I pretended to not be me, to not be the person I know I am now. I tried hiding my hurt from myself. Needless to say that made everything worse. I eventually decided to get real help.
I found what I had been hiding from and running from for most of my life I found what I never felt that I deserved. I found happiness. I found myself.
I still work everyday at being better. A better person, a better father, a better me. Everyday is a challenge, everyday it is worth the effort. Every sunset and sunrise I see, every star in the sky and all the phases of the moon I witness I am grateful for and see the beauty in it. I have hope and happiness, I have more strength and confidence.
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