Everyday that I’m further away from my last show I feel more balanced and healthy, and each day feeling better mentally and physically it has me questioning if I want to compete in the fall or take time off. I am loving feeling balanced and happy and the extremes of competing are less appealing as I am finding beauty in the balance and in life. I love competing, I love the challenge and seeing how far I can push myself and what I am capable of. I know competing is an extreme and that it’s mentally and physically exhausting. But as time passes I feel my heart may be changing and the next season of my life might be a place where I step away from the stage, and embrace finding balance and retiring from the extremes. For a long time I have placed my identity in what I DO rather than BEING. I was dancer, then a fitness person, then a bodybuilder. I never knew anything else. I was looking for love and identity in the wrong places. Everyday I am further into stepping into my power, spirit, being, energy the more peace I feel. And the more exercise and nutrition is a piece of my life not all of it.